Current thoughts

THSgossipgirl.

We all hate her, but at the same time we (some of us) love(d) her. 

I know I did. Being able to read so many things about different people was honestly very fun and very interesting. Of course I felt bad for taking pleasure in the undermining of others but still, very enjoyable.

We found dirt (both new and already known) on other people. We turned against each other. We were exposed.

In the end, we were perceived as a bunch of sick degenerates who go at each others’ throats when we get the chance. THSGG made us realize the disgusting nature of humans. 

Minutes, hours after THSgossipgirl privatized her site, statuses went up all over facebook talking about how disappointed people were of THS, of the people around them, of this gossip spreading.

But one thing I don’t understand is what’s so different about this time compared to others? We’ve always been like what THSGG showed us today. We stab peoples backs, we want to undermine others, and we want to feel better about ourselves at the expense of others. So why does it matter that other peoples’ sick nature has been shown? Why should something that was already there influence our own personal connections with others?

What I think is more disappointing than our revealed bloodthirsty and vulture-like character is how easily our opinions of others have changed in the matter of minutes. Most of the people mentioned in THSGG’s posts were people that we knew to an extent, some closer than the others. They’re people that we’ve built relationships with and actually got to know over the course of time. To easily discard our own perceptions and thoughts of a person and adopt another person’s tabloid-esque antagonizing viewpoints of the people around us, now that’s what is truly sick to me. THSGG’s This Just Ins and whatnot should not be influencing how we see others. Despite probably having some truths to them, they should not be changing our thoughts, our feelings, our sentiment towards one another. They are merely words, merely stories, merely truths (in some cases) told by another person. These posts don’t show the sides of these people that we have seen around school, that we have seen when we made a personal connection with them, that we have seen when they were vulnerable. These posts don’t do justice. They only show only one small, very twisted facet of a person’s true character and personality.

As I said before, our nature has always been this twisted, this corrupt. But that shouldn’t cloud your views of other people because every person is a lot more than what is just shown. Don’t focus on what people say about others, rely on what you have personally seen, experienced, and realized about the people around you.

This incident isn’t something disappointing, this is merely a reminder of what has always been a part of us. Don’t let something that is present in everyone become a repellent, a roadblock in the thoughts/relationships that we’ve personally built and developed with others. Hell, just take it as it is and don’t think anymore of it.

Just my own two cents.

Prom.

Now that’s the great ambiguity.

Boston

Well, I won’t be able to visit Boston during the break to give me a glimpse of what my next 4 years will seem like.

So essentially I’ll be committing to live in a completely new and unknown place.

Boston has 4 seasons, a fast-paced lifestyle, the East Coast culture (still trying to figure out what that means), and is a white-dominant city

Fully/Cali has/is none of that.

But oddly enough, I’m completely okay with what I’m committing to.

Makes me realized that sometimes you just have to take that leap of faith into something completely different, something completely strange. It is from that moment on that your world, your horizons, and your views in life begin to expand and mature.

I guess Boston it is.

I can’t believe this

I only have a few months of high school left… and if I follow through with my current sentiments, I’ll be heading over to the east coast for the upcoming school year. This is just so surreal, in both good and bad ways. The Three Amigos + the White Guy will be broken up, I won’t be attending Sarang anymore, and I won’t be able to see most of the friends that I have built relationships with for the past four years. But at the same time, I’ll be in a new environment, surrounded by new people with different ideals and different perspectives, all coming from all over the world and all over the US with different goals and aspirations. I’ll finally become independent, but what if I screw myself up for the rest of my life? What if I can’t control myself and go on a total party/insanity spree? How will I stay connected to God? Will I be able to stay faithful? College seems so exciting, yet so daunting at the same time.

Will I be able to succeed? Not in the world’s definition of success, but according to my own thoughts and according to God’s thoughts?

College Season 2012

Now this chapter of my life has come to a close.

4 acceptances, 11 rejections, 1 waitlist.

Colleges, I just wanted to thank you for the opportunity of having my application read by each of your admissions offices. Each rejection helped me reflect on the flaws present within my high school career such as my lack of drive, my lack of productivity, or my carelessness. Each acceptance was a confidence booster, a spark of hope as some of them were to places that I didn’t think I would get into. This admissions process has been such a blessing to me. I hope that my undergrad years will be a time where I can truly change myself and be where I want to be. Then I will be coming after you colleges once again when grad school admissions come along. I just hope that you’ll be ready for me by then.

Now the biggest question of my life (so far): BC or UCSD?

nathanyo-o:

chrskm:

smangful:

mysockbox:

uhm this is what matt pak lectured to me about today, and frankly, high school really doesn’t matter that much. it’s just a small pivot in your life, and even if you fuck it up, it’s irreversible. However, there are other things that could be more important: like family, fun, good times, that can’t be reversed. You can go back to learn the things you missed, but you can’t go back in time and have the fun you missed out on, because everyone else would have moved on.

wtf. stop trying to be deep, justin.

to this justin kid: no.

Um I think I can attest to the fact that it’s possible to do both? Seriously living proof come at me bro if you think it’s false. Adopting a humanistic philosophy helps a lot too.

LOL. i just realized who justin was. my bad. (x
let me explain why i’m saying no.
High school is where you develop your habits, both good and bad. It’s true that if you immerse yourself in academics and studies, you will be missing out on many possible memories such as hanging out with friends, having family time, or just having fun in general. But if you think of high school as, according to what you say, “a small pivot of your life”, you are completely wrong. Lets say you just spend most of your time making memories and just slack off on academics (just taking an extreme POV). Once you enter into college (IF you, an ambiguous you, can even get into a college after slacking off so much), you will struggle. The habits that you made of just playing around and having fun will be very detrimental no matter how much you say you’ll study once you enter college because frankly speaking, you had 4 years to change yourself but you didn’t so why would you change once you enter college? Of course there will be exceptions to this situation also. but in general, high school is not a time to slack off. And at somewhere like Troy, where academics is very tied into the social scene (well for the asians/ap/ib kids), you can also make memories while studying with your friends or something along that line. I’m not telling you to not have fun nor study your ass off and not have a life, but just remember to always have a balance, because high school is a time of development and change. The habits that you make during this time period can make or break you in the long run. 

nathanyo-o:

chrskm:

smangful:

mysockbox:

uhm this is what matt pak lectured to me about today, and frankly, high school really doesn’t matter that much. it’s just a small pivot in your life, and even if you fuck it up, it’s irreversible. However, there are other things that could be more important: like family, fun, good times, that can’t be reversed. You can go back to learn the things you missed, but you can’t go back in time and have the fun you missed out on, because everyone else would have moved on.

wtf. stop trying to be deep, justin.

to this justin kid: no.

Um I think I can attest to the fact that it’s possible to do both? Seriously living proof come at me bro if you think it’s false. Adopting a humanistic philosophy helps a lot too.

LOL. i just realized who justin was. my bad. (x

let me explain why i’m saying no.

High school is where you develop your habits, both good and bad. It’s true that if you immerse yourself in academics and studies, you will be missing out on many possible memories such as hanging out with friends, having family time, or just having fun in general. But if you think of high school as, according to what you say, “a small pivot of your life”, you are completely wrong. Lets say you just spend most of your time making memories and just slack off on academics (just taking an extreme POV). Once you enter into college (IF you, an ambiguous you, can even get into a college after slacking off so much), you will struggle. The habits that you made of just playing around and having fun will be very detrimental no matter how much you say you’ll study once you enter college because frankly speaking, you had 4 years to change yourself but you didn’t so why would you change once you enter college? Of course there will be exceptions to this situation also. but in general, high school is not a time to slack off. And at somewhere like Troy, where academics is very tied into the social scene (well for the asians/ap/ib kids), you can also make memories while studying with your friends or something along that line. I’m not telling you to not have fun nor study your ass off and not have a life, but just remember to always have a balance, because high school is a time of development and change. The habits that you make during this time period can make or break you in the long run. 

(Source: staypozitive)

smangful:

mysockbox:

uhm this is what matt pak lectured to me about today, and frankly, high school really doesn’t matter that much. it’s just a small pivot in your life, and even if you fuck it up, it’s irreversible. However, there are other things that could be more important: like family, fun, good times, that can’t be reversed. You can go back to learn the things you missed, but you can’t go back in time and have the fun you missed out on, because everyone else would have moved on.

wtf. stop trying to be deep, justin.

to this justin kid: no.

smangful:

mysockbox:

uhm this is what matt pak lectured to me about today, and frankly, high school really doesn’t matter that much. it’s just a small pivot in your life, and even if you fuck it up, it’s irreversible. However, there are other things that could be more important: like family, fun, good times, that can’t be reversed. You can go back to learn the things you missed, but you can’t go back in time and have the fun you missed out on, because everyone else would have moved on.

wtf. stop trying to be deep, justin.

to this justin kid: no.

(Source: staypozitive)

Today

Was a fun day. :D

Nice long talk sesh about the randomest things with Tiffany Chang and Anthony Mai.

Good progress with our FBLA stuff. We’re gonna WIN. (:

ibelieveinnextstophappiness:

I Won’t Give Up- Jason Mraz

‘cause even the stars they burn, some even fall to the earth. We’ve got a lot to learn, God knows we’re worth it.

this song. <3

“I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up”